Friday's Observations

-Fridays really are just that much better during the school year.

-Naps throw my entire life into chaos.

-Frog food kept me up all night. Translation: Crickets I feed my frog were chirping till 2 am, so I couldn't sleep.

-I like teachers who go through information SUPER slow.

-I still don't get Gibbs free energy. And I've learned about it life five times. Maybe it is just not meant to be.

-So who is the TP and who is the poo? Ha! Thanks, my fabulous friend, P******!

-I'm unsure about this. I need more clarification on what this is called. And I am kind super nervous about it too....Then again.....

-I really need to chop my hair off and I really want another tat. Thanks, F****!

Indian Art, Physics, and Time Flying By

So, only three classes left until my first week of school is over. Shocking really! Where does the time go? I have an odd mix of uber excitement and apprehension inside me concerning graduation. I mean, what the heck?!, only 15 weeks and one day of classes until I will never be working on my bachelor's degree. Where does the time go. It reminds me daily that I have to seize every day and enjoy it to the fullest I can. After all, I only have one more semester to live it up. ;) Just kidding...After that, who knows where life will go. It may get even crazier from here on out. Who knows.

So, I finished my physics homework only to find that I had more posted online. It was a big weight off my shoulders with another to be dropped right on. He he...I worked on homework all today and I officially only have 3 chapters left to read, one physics problem left to work, and my physics lab report. I will work on this along with the other homework I get assigned on Friday over the weekend.

My Henna is already fading. It reached its peak yesterday and I can already see a decline. I put mine on the back of my wrist, but my skin is so dark from the farm that it really isn't even all that noticeable. I think I need to hop a plane to India to get some real Henna. :) Random fact: In India, brides get henna put over their entire body for a wedding. The rule is they can't do housework until it wears off. Ha!

Challenging...

So...after I answered the question of the ages: What is the potential acceleration of a glass bead (+2.0 nC) on an electron-which is approximately 3.8x10^14 by the way-I felt much better about my life. This meant that I did not have to drive to Pueblo tomorrow morning in order to consult with my physics professor or a tutor in the math lab to get some help with this problem. I figured it out. Yay! Now, I can commit tomorrow to finishing up *crossing my fingers* the rest of the homework that I have been assigned in the two days I have been at school. It consists of the following:
-Read ~20 pages for biochem
-Assign functional groups to 4 large molecules
-Do some online physics problems
-Read ~20 pages for microbiology
-Do micro homework sets
-Read 6 chapters for environmental toxicology
-Write my physics formal report
I really do love school. Once I get back in the groove-which I think I just did with my electron/glass bead problem-I thrive on the challenge of stuffing all my homework into life.

My favorite sentence of the day: "Exquisite stereospecificity is due to chirality of the molecules of the body." I love it! :)

Today I...

Today I:
-Tried dog toothpaste. Seriously. My boss said I had to try it. The repertoire included chicken, malt, and vanilla mint. Hmm...I think her philosophy was that I could better sell it to a dog if I had tried it myself. I drew the line at seafood toothpaste though.
-Realized I should not be so freaked about my classes. It will be a ton of work, but I am luckily only at school 3 days a week.
-Talked with a friend from Med Sci club and said I could help with the club this year. I decided not to be an officer, because I will be leaving in the middle of the year....
-Got GRE scores in the mail and found out that I have a great score on analytical writing.
-LOVED the new Sugarland CD.
-am in disbelief that it is time for round two of school.

And now I am going to go work on homework. I need to see if I can figure out any of my biochemistry problems. :)

Good-bye, Summer...

HIGHLIGHTS OF MY SUMMER
Working at a wildlife rehab center.
Doing a 17 mile hike up a mountain in Rye.
"Meeting" a friend I'd never met before. :)
Going to Washington to see Monique get married.
Making Italian food and watching movies with Carly on Friday nights.
Meeting my three little cousins.
Seeing the house I grew up in after 10 years.
Learning that there is a balance between "perfect love casts out fear" and wisdom.
Going to a drive-in.
Leaving the realm of teenagerdom by turning 20 and celebrating it by playing fruitwhacker! :)
Starting my first relationship and having God teach me so much in the midst of and after it.
Being a dirt farmer.
Rockclimbing at Newlin Creek.
Reading "A Thousand Splendid Suns" and starting "Lost in the Amazon".
Letting go of my future and giving it to God.

With school starting in a matter of...several hours, I am looking back and my summer and reflecting on all the blessings I had. God is so good to teach me through His word and life experiences. I am sad to say good-bye to it, but with only one semester left, I am really starting to look forward to entering the next phase of my life and seeing what God has for me. :)

Fabulous Book

"A Thousand Splendid Suns". It is most positively going on my top...8 reads of all time. Seriously. If you do not read this book, you are completely missing out. I rarely read a book that is so good that I can roam around the house, doing chores, and literally smiling about something that happened when I last read it. At one point, I literally jumped off my bed and said "Woo hoo" because something amazing had just happened. So, if you have room to fit this into your summer reading list, do it! This was a great book to close off my summer reading with. School starts on Monday, so any reading I do here on out will likely be textbooks or journal articles. :)

Tin!!

What?! It is Thursday morning already. *Sigh* Where does the time go? Oh, yes, to work and studying. I nearly forgot. :)

So, I got a new phone yesterday. I can actually enter this century with a phone that takes pictures and I can send text messages for less than a fortune. Hooray! Anyone, have a cell phone, and I'll send you a picture text. He he...

So, I went to the chiropractor yesterday to try and get my hip fixed. I messed it up running a while back. After several months of it not getting better, I finally decided to try and get it fixed. I am praying that it will heal!!

So, there is a highly amusing chicken that lives at the farm (Zia, the baby named her "Tin" in trying to say chicken) who always hangs out with the people. Very interesting chicken. Yesterday, we were loading the VW van with vegetables to go to Colorado Springs restaurants. M and I kept having to shoo her out of the van. After several times of getting her out of the passenger seat, M started yelling at Tin that she absolutely could not go to Springs today. I promptly started busting up at that point. Yup, that was fun. I can't believe I only have one day left at the farm. Sad day....

Sniff, sniff

This is always a sad time of the year. I have to say good-bye to friends who are going away to school. I went over to my friend, C's house, this evening to say adios. She is heading out to school in Illinois. I've known her for about 10 years, and I have always told her my first memory of her was her singing Veggie Tales songs with a few of the other girls I eventually made friends with. In my opinion, they were some of the coolest people I had ever seen. He he... And adios to K who is heading up to school a few hours away. Another one of my Veggie tunes peeps.

On the bright side, I get to say hello to a few friends who are coming back to Pueblo for the school year. Woo hoo! I can't wait to see F, my friend who introduced me to the fruit lichee. She is from Hawaii and had always talked about how good it was. I finally had some in Washington. And W.Y. who I will be playing soccer with this semester. And C who never fails to make me laugh. I'm pretty stoked to see them all...

Speaking of school, only five days left of summer. Ah! It is going by so fast. My goals are to finish the book I am currently in the middle of and get some Henna. Sweet!!!

My Pride

Manipulation. The word has a new meaning to me as something I am realizing I've been completely sucked into lately. I have made the mistake of putting off studying God's word in a hardcore way this summer. God, forgive my pride in thinking I don't need Your Word to survive this life!! Because of this, I think I have failed to separate the soul and the spirit. What is my carnal man and what are the things that God has placed as pure desires in my life? It is so good to step out of a situation and realize why I was so mixed up and frustrated in the middle of it.

Now I am working on two things upon getting out of the trouble I basically asked for. One, it is crucial to fear God and not men. Why get to mixed up in what people think of me and how I come across when it is only God that I should be worried about. Two, God can make beauty out of my mistakes. My brokenness will be turned into beauty and I choose to trust in that.

Hebrews 4:12-"For the Word of God is living and powerful, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart."

Matthew 4:4-"But He answered and said, "it is written, 'Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.'"

God Totally Knows!

So, the camping trip that I had planned for this weekend was cancelled when we checked the weather and saw that rain and hail and possible snow were part of the forecast. I thought we should rough it out with rain, but when I pondered and realized none of my friends have good camping equipment, I figured that hail and snow would potentially ruin some of them for life. :) Therefore, we opted to go to the Mill. It was a small group of us compared to what was initially going to go camping, but we had fun. I saw a friend that I haven't seen all summer since he has been in Serbia for missions work. We talked a lot about the upcoming year and funny things that have happened in our summers so far. Good stuff!

After making it to the Mill through torrents of rain, I found myself confronted yet again with the subject of authority. It is for sure by this time: God is trying to teach me something about authority. It is something I struggle against so much (with the exception of my parents in general and teachers at school), and I think God is ready to tear down some walls I have built up. I have had experience in my life with potential authority figures (whether it be in church or relationships in which a person will potentially one day be an authority figure) that really turns me off to submitting to a certain kind of authority. I believe it is time to get out my Bible and concordance and really rip apart what it means to submit to authority and in what situations. I will keep you all updated on what I come up with.

God so provides!!! So, because of the job choices I have made this summer, including an unpaid internship and a dirt farmer that gets paid squat, I have very little extra cash. My savings is slowly dwindling. With the time coming up to apply for grad schools and vet schools, I was starting to freak out. I needed about six hundred dollars to cover all the applications, sending in of transcripts, and GRE fees. Frustration was overwhelming me, and I was beginning to wonder if I should even apply. God totally provided in that He led someone to help me out with this process. AMAZING!!!! God knows exactly what I need when I need it!

Chillax!!!

So, I apologize for how brief and frustrated my last post was. After getting my mind in order and having some sense talked into me by some awesome family members, I have decided to retake the test. I will study my rearend off-again-until September 2nd when I will retake my GRE. I only need to bring up my quantitative score up by 45 points to be average for vet students. I am choosing to be happy about how high my verbal scores were and just keep on trucking. I am right where I feel like I should be. I have decided to take my applications one day at a time and do the best that I can with what I have. I cannot rush to apply for other graduate programs. I will wait until I know what is going on with veterinary school and go from there.

On a side note, mosquitoes are certainly one of the best curses that came around when sin entered the world. Today at the farm was INSANE!!! I left in the middle of taters to run to Wally World and pick up some intense bug spray. The deep woods hunter stuff with a ton of DEET still only repelled about 1/2 of the mosquitoes, but I guess that is fewer bites for me to worry about. Now I just am praying I will be protected from West Nile. Two girls I work with have gotten in. The odds of me getting it are pretty high...Scary!

Argh!

So, I took my GRE today. I will get my official score report in the next ten to fifteen days, but it looks as if my scores were not very good. I did above average on the verbal section of the test, but the quantitative section was not very good. Fortunately, Kansas State University does not look at the GRE as one of the application materials. Colorado State University does however. In any case, I will be working on my applications this week and hopefully get them in in two weeks time tops. If God wants me in there, He will get me in. If not, I have somewhere else I am supposed to be. I am fighting a bit of frustration and disappointment, but life goes on.

Luv Addict and School Decisions

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By the way, "symptomatic" means according to the symptoms. :)

My life has been crazy since I've gotten back from WA. I thought it would chill once I got back from vacation, but that was far from the case. My mind and heart has been struggling with His will for me in the months after I graduate. Graduating in December will give me an extra semester and summer that I have to choose what I will do with. The dates and requirements for application to different grad schools and vet schools seemed to be mixed up with a lot of my other ideas of things I wanted to do in that spring semester. In any case, after much thinking and praying and worrying and giving worries to God, I have decided to apply to a DTS through YWAM for this January. I will find out if I have been accepted to veterinary schools by mid February or sooner and I can decide from there if I want to continue to pursue international health or veterinary medicine. One day at a time...Until the time when those decisions do come, I am trying to focus on the now and all the blessings and opportunities in front of me.

Quick Post

So, I have been back for a few days, but have failed to blog. I can't put too much time into this post, because I still need to study for my GRE. I take it on the 11th, so I am trying to commit to some study time every day up until then. A few updates or random things....

-The trip was great. My little kid cousins (Gabe, Nolan, Tyler, and Abigail) are way too stinking cute. I wish I lived closer to them!

-I got a free iPod today. My friend wasn't using it anymore, so he gave it to me. Woo hoo!

-Only 2 weeks and four days until school starts. Where did all the time go?!

-I bought all my textbooks for school this semester, spending somewhere in the vicinity of 600 bucks. Ouch! There goes all the money I will be making this summer....