The Adventure Begins

So, I can hardly believe that it is here. Time to leave for Longmont. I have an internship at a wildlife rehabilitation center that starts tomorrow. I plan on leaving about 5 and hope to be up there by 8. God is awesome! I was scheduled to work Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Fridays; but I was able to reschedule for Tuesday through Friday. This makes it so it will be easier to come home on the weekends and see family and friends. Plus, then I can work on Monday here in town. Otherwise, I would have been stuck in Longmont Thursdays with no job. I applied for a few last week, but had no luck.

"Perfect love casts out fear..." God is showing me a lot about being a fearless person. While I am walking with him there is no condemnation. I have a tendency to fear things going wrong. I have always planned my life in such a way to avoid hurt and failure. It hasn't always been successful. I have had my share of people hurting me or failing in an area I thought I was supposed to go out and conquer. However, the more I walk in this "adult world"-which is quite different than I expected it to be (Eating ice cream every night without needing parent's permission isn't what I thought it would be when I was nine. Plus, this whole adult thing causes me to be broke most of the time. ;))-the more I realize that even if I do the right thing, bad things can happen. Or even if I follow the "right formula" there is a possibility to get hurt. So, now that I have realized that hurt is inevitable my next dilemna is how to deal with it. It is in realizing that nothing can separate me from His love. If my trust is completely grounded in Him, yes, I may get hurt, but regardless of what I go through, I can have peace and confidence in walking with Him through it all.

So, I am hoping to find some internet up in Longmont. I'll either drag my laptop into a library or coffee shop. Or maybe I can mooch internet off my new neighbors. He he...Just kidding. I think. ;)

Ah!

Ah! I feel like I am standing watching life sprint by me. It is already Tuesday of finals week. I am done with Mendelian and Molecular Genetics and Mammalogy with only Organic Chemistry and my MFAT to go. The MFAT scares me in that it is the test I take that goes over everything I have learned as an undergraduate student. Hmm, talk about a little stressful. I have heard there is really no way to study for it though, so...I'm not really studying. Organic is another story. I really need to start studying for that one. Hmmm....

Well, off to see how much I can be conned to sell a textbook for. :) I still haven't figured out the best way to do that one.

I need You like the rain
Come to me and sing again
I long for Your love so much
I've wanted Your pure touch

You are beautiful, beautiful
You're beautiful, beautiful
So beautiful, so beautiful

I need You to be here
Come to me, I can feel You near
I love You, You are my hope
You love me as Your own
"Beautiful" by Sam Lane

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!! My parents have finally given in. I really had nothing to do with this. It was all their decision. We're getting a puppy. I have not yet seen it, but I hear it is a lab/rottweiler mix. Two months old. I'm super excited!

I checked out of O. chem lab today. This means no more organic chemistry experiments for me ever again. Good-bye refluxing! Adios safety goggles! Sianara (sp?) percent and theoretical yields of product! Yes, lab was a fun experience, and one I will likely remember for a long time, but I am not too sad to see it go. I will miss hanging out with all my awesome lab nerd friends six hours a week. I will not miss the cosmic hole on our side of the lab that often leaked and ruined our products. I will miss when A_ brought in his i-Pod and the whole lab sang Cindy Lauper songs. I won't miss analyzing NMR's. Farewell, O. Chem lab!

The Beginning of the End...

So, my last week of classes is next week. The week after that is finals. Ah! I can hardly believe it. :) It's just about crunch time it looks like. Time to study non-stop except for snack and sleep breaks. I admit I am not looking forward to it. I'm a bit burnt on studying, so am looking to God for the strength to keep it strong for 2 more weeks.

After that, I have one week of chill time. Then I leave for Longmont. Ah! I got a two month internship in Longmont this summer at Greenwood Wildlife Rehabilitation Center. I am still looking for places to stay, so any prayer in that area would be appreciated. So far, I have one potential, but it is in Loveland. I would take it if it worked out, but I am hoping for something a little closer to where I will be working.

So, I have had a realization these past few days. God is teaching me about listening to Him and how to obey once I hear. I am realizing that it is not about praying and flipping to random Scriptures in the Bible until I find the answer. It is about having such a tight relationship with Him, that I know what He loves and what He hates. Because we are so close, my desires match His.

Ooops

Yes, I know I am a slacker. Life has been pretty crazy for the past month. It's not excuse though. What's new? ;)

So, I am back in Canon. After more prayer, God let me move back. I like to say God changed His mind, but I think I actually changed my attitude.

Spring break was GREAT! I went with Campus Crusade to Mississippi to do some hurricane relief work. I was very surprised at what still needed to be done in the area. We were kept busy most of the time picking up debris. Some of the more interesting articles were a moped and a life-jacket in a tree. However, we also had the opportunity to help two individuals either build a house or fix up a house from damage that had been done. It was a great opportunity to take time to serve for a week and get away from school. I met a lot of new friends which was also fun!

I am going to live in Longmont, Colorado for two months this summer. I have an internship at a wildlife rehabilitation center which I am very excited about. I think this will be a great experience to put on my application for vet school-which I do this summer. AH!

Speaking of school, I am looking at a school in Grenada. ;) It has an amazing program that combines a doctor of veterinary medicine degree and a master of public health degree. It seems to be an opportunity that would combine my interest in animal medicine and my desire to serve in Africa's public health situation. This is a perfect opportunity, and I am looking into the program very seriously.

Well, I am off to Mammalogy. Only three weeks and four days of school left! I can hardly believe it.

Trust

Learning trust right now. I asked God if I could move back to Canon. I miss my family and am flat out tired of Pueblo. Yes, I agree that I change my mind quite often. This past week has been a battle between God and I. I keep trying to tell myself there is nothing wrong with my picking up and moving back to Canon while God keeps telling me it's a no. I know what it feels like for God to say no. Last time he said no, and I disobeyed, times were not good. :) It is true that we learn through experience. This said from personal experience. Unfortunately.

So, for some reason, I am not supposed to move back into Canon right now. I have to trust God that he knows best. He does not give snakes when I ask for bread. So, I don't know why I'm here and it is really hard, but where He leads, I will follow.

Complete Exhaustion

Phew, I'm out. Hopefully the rest of the week is easy. I stayed up until 12:30 last night at a concert which was a lot of fun. Alanis Morisette was my favorite band. And one of the smaller bands that played-MuteMath-was really good. I'm going to look into their music more.

Killer organic lab test today. Two hours. Probably the worst test I've ever taken in my life. Literally. I may very likely fail that one. The only thing that makes me okay with it is the fact that I got the highest test grade in lecture. Ah! I couldn't believe it. So, my day was fine despite the crazy lab test.

Now I think I may go and sleep the rest of the afternoon and night. :)