Race

Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Therefore I run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus I fight: not as one beating the air. But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others I myself should become disqualified.
1 Corinthians 9:24-27

This is the verse I am memorizing. That was one of the things I realized recently. I just really slacked off memorizing God's word-well, basically after I stopped doing AWANA-which was a long time ago. Anyway, I am striving to memorize more of His word. This one really sticks out to me, because I feel like God has been speaking to me just about life in general.

I honestly feel very confused right now. I just do not know what to do. Everyone else seems so directed. Teaching English in other countries, starting missions work in another country...Compared to that, I feel like I am not doing much. But then again I also want to be sure that I am not discrediting something just because I do not feel like I am doing anything. God is the one to work through me. However, I think that sometimes that feeling of discontent is there for a reason. So, I guess right now I am analyzing life and trying to figure out if I am in a place that God wants me in.

Whatever it is I do, I want to be certain that I am not running with uncertainty or beating the air when I fight. I want to be certain where I am going in the race of life and make a difference when I fight for Christ. God, show me how to do that!